Lovely Saturday

Met a friend around 2pm. Went to this sushi bar to have lunch, cost around $30 I think.. Not very sure hahaha!!! Cuz I used Masters to pay for it anyway... I guessed I don't really wanna go into the Details... Better go into my Sister's Blog for the full details of it... hahaah!!

Met up with my sister and "settled" some issues, after which we went back to Bugis to do some shopping. Outside the water fountain at Seiyu, there was this CLEO Barbie Doll competition, and we took these photos! They were really very beautiful, you won't believed that they were being made up by local artists... COOL!


Really cool 70's layout of house


This one's my Fav! Exactly how I wanted my room to look like!







After we took some photos, we went to Bugis Village to shop around. The weather was really really hot! So, I bought some fruit Freezes for both of us... hahaah!! Chill man! The place was jammed packed with youngsters, and of cause, a great place for both of us to look at Cute guys & girls haha!!! But it was more of an advantage to me lolZ! Cause there were more cute & pretty girls to look at whahaah!!! Sorry girl... =p

Then, Ang, my sister's friend, came to join us half way. We decided to explore the small lanes opposite MOS Burger and we found this dessert shop, called "Ji De Chi" or "Remember to Eat", that sells absolutely delicious dessert!

We ordered some of the best dishes in the shop. "Black & White", "Peppermint Gui Ling Gou", "Mango with Steamed Egg", "Peanut Paste", "Ginger milk", "Hazma"


The peppermint Gui Ling Gou was really very smooth and delicious!!


"Black & White": Combination of Sesame & Almond paste. A wicked Combination!


"Hazma": In chinese known as "Xue Ha", finest extracts from toads. EEK!


"Mango with Steamed Egg": YUMMY!!!


"Peanut Paste": Smooth and nice to eat haaha!!!





After we walked out from the stall, we walked around Bugis Seiyu abit before we headed for the MRT. The whole day I was calling Ber, but her HP doesn't seem to go thru, then finally she called! OMG!!! When I heard her voice I almost wanna give her a big hug hahaah!!! That's only if she was right infront of me hahaah!!! I missed her so so so so so MUCH!!! Chatted with her from Bugis till Tampines station, and met up with her at Tampines, DBS building.

Feeling bored on the Train we took some photos... hheeee!


Ang & Sis


3 of us ;)


Both me & Ang were very tall, we're about 1.85 M i think... So I joked that we can go be models hahaa!!!


Taken on the bus back home...

Screwed-up Friday

Oh my gosh! I didn't realised that it was Friday the 13th. Hopefully, this day won't be ruined by Mr Gary....

Today I ran 15 rounds round the Stadium, really damn song lorZ... So long never run liaoZ... Suddenly run so many tounds, it was really a release for me... hahaha!!!

Went back to my bunk and quickly bathe, and quickly went to settle Mr. Gary's report. After which, quickly went to lunch... GOSH!! Had a really quick lunch... Cuz that freaking mr gary cant wait at all....

after lunch, I went around trying to settle things... Get pricelist for Mr. Ananh...And then I received a wonderful news... He's leaving the Island at 2pm... EVERYONE GET READY TO PARTY!!! HAHAHA!!! wOoOOOOOO!!! haahh!!!

Still, even thou he left the island... I still got alot of things to check... Stores, CELs, Internal Store check reports... Sigh.... almost an endless list of things to settle...

But one thing was okie... Mr Gary aproved my Monday Leave haahah!!! YEAH!!

So, I went around to check on Ninja ANd pegasus's store... Ah.... 4:15pm... Just nice...

THen, a call came in...

"Jonny... Need your help..." from DY LSA.
"Okok..coming back soon..."

A shock came... Mr. Gary last minute wanted a change in the Financial budget report. He want's the Dollars & Cents part back...ARH!!!! i so wanna kill him!!! Why he want it back at this very last minute? WHen everyone were in a merry mood to book out?? He's such an asshole-bastard!!! ARH!!!!

My plan to book out early as possible, so that I can reach home and change into nicer looking clothing before I go and meet Joyce and Valere was totally ruined!!!! ARH!!!

but nevermind...I'm planning to book in on Sunday to settle everything... Thanks ah! Asss hole!!! bECAUSE OF YOU!!! EVERYONE'S WORKING OT OVER THE WEEKENDS. AND YOU DON'T EVEN SHOW THE SLIGHTEST APPRECIATION!!!!

managed to catch the 6pm fastcraft out of that god dammit island... It seems like the Boat Driver, the bus driver and the MRT driver somehow or eather knew that i was in a rush to get to Bugis.. Thus, I reached all the 3 placew in record timing... hahah!!!

I tell you...this is the very first time that I wear till so ugly to Bugis area can???!!! OMG!!! It was like everyone worn till very nice can??? arh!!! I felt like finding a hole and bury myself inside...

Anyway, the dinner with Joyce & Valere was really wonderful... We talked about old times and how each other has been doing ever since we graduated... SO nice to know that all of them were doingf well aahah!!

You know what??? I finally meet up with Ber ber liaoZ haahah!!! SO HAPPY!!! I guessed she was kinda shy, since it was the first time we met...

Anyway, after our dinner, I went to look for Ber Ber... She was with her friend, Sally, outside MOS Burger smoking... Ber Ber told me that her friend Sally is looking for a BF, so I introduced my friend, Ricky to her hahaah!!! Trying to let people know people loLZ :p

THen, we walked to MRT station... OMG! The train was totally cramped with people... But I used my body to shield Ber Ber from the crowd so that she won't be squeezed...

Had a great time with her... Even though it was only so short... She walked me to the Bus Interchange, but Bus 291 came so fast lor.... why can't it arrive a bit later? So that I can have more time with her.... Idiot... hahaah!!!

Never mind lahZ...still got Saturday and Sunday haahah!!!

OK lahZ...I go sleep liaoZ... to tired...Tomorrow still gotta meet up with more friends... looZ nite nite!

Lousy Thursday

Last night, while waiting for Ber to reply me, I totally fell asleep... I couldn't believed myself that I was that tired!!! GOSH! I was awaken until Ber gave me a call, it was only den that I realised that I feel asleep with my facial Mask on... AHHhhhhh!!! Thus, I quickly threw the facial mask away...

Was unable to sleep after I hung up with Ber, thus I went down to Old LOG BR to do some net surfing and also check out some of the Yahoo! Groups... Was quite surprised to see my sister and Ber, still online at that time (It was about 12:30am, when I logged on...) Chatted with my sister and even showed her Hazel's account, cause she just uploaded some photos which she has taken recently...

I missed Ber so so so much... Sigh... She's flying off to Thailand together with her parents next Saturday, 21 OCT, and coming back on the eve of Hari Raya Puasa. I am so gonna miss her... Ber, enjoy yourself okie?? I'll be here in Singapore waiting for you to return...

Sigh, wonder how I'm gonna spend the weekend without her... Oh well, I guess just stay at home and watch some online videos hhaah!!!

TODAY WAS SO LOUSY LOR! arh!!! so much things to do, with so little time... Collect & update CELs, handle CSMs, make sure all uniforms were sent for sewing, stock take, get the old PCs to be ready for condemnation... And worst of all, the compilation of the barrack damages for the whole of school 2....

ARH!!!! I'M GONNA COLLAPSE SOON!!! BER TAKE ME AWAY CAN???!!!

While un-screwing all the screws from the CPUs to take out any remaining card-readers and HDDs, I accidentally cut myself with the screwdriver... Sigh...those stupid people turned the screws in So damn fucking tight, that alot of times I had real big problem trying to take them out... ARH!!1 those idiots...Work without using brains...

Anyway... Tomorrow is weekends! Friday night meet up with Joye and Valere for Dinner. SOooo long never meet them liaoZ... GOnna have lots of laughters with them... AHHhh.... Just hope that idiotic Mr Gary don't screw up my day...

new hair cut

Today, the haze was even worse than yesterday. I totally don't even wanna be outdoor for even one minute lorZ!!! Cause it's like a Big Oven outdoor lorZ... But, still because of my Boss, I Bo bian have to be outside lorZ... Some more, I have to go through 11 companies, and storm every single level to check for barrack damages.

Around 11:30am, I was chatting with Hazel, and she told me that she was broke, with only $10 in her bank, so I decided to take the 12pm boat out and transfer some money to her. hahaa!! And also, withdraw some money also lolZ... Had my lunch at Subway, kaoZ! you know what, after eating a footlong meal, I was still HUNGRY!!! OH MY GOD!! I wonder if i was a hungry ghost in my past life?? hhaah!!! Anyway, on the way back, I bought some kueys for the people in LSA to eat and also some herbal teas...cuz the weather was really really bad....

Went for the 1:30pm boat in... and on the way, met my Secondary School Friend, Wei Long, who's now 2LT liaoZ hahaah!! In camp must salute him...lolZ...but ok lahZ...all officers won't be so harsh on 3SGs one lahZ...cuz they also know we're all doing the same shit job hahh!!!

Back to my work again....

it's so hot lor!!! Imagine the heat from the Sun, plus the heat from the ground, then plus the thick layer of Haze that trapped the heat in, preventing it from escaping. 3-in-1 combo! Super duper hot! I was perspiring the moment I stepped out from the Office...

But luckily, I did checks on a few companies, so this time round the check was done pretty quick. SO, it was still okie... Immediately when I finished my work, I dashed back to LSA to enjoy air con. But it doesn't seem to take away the heat from me at all... I was still sweating like a mad pig in LSA office...

After which, I asked around if there was still any matters that Mr. Eric would wanna address.. And they said no. So, I quickly rushed back to my bunk to get change and rush for the 5:30pm boat

Quickly "flew" back home, had my dinner, and went down for hair cut.. hahah!!! Had a new haircut... Gonna go back to sporting a jap hairstyle liaoz...

ok...that's all for tonight...need to turn in liaoZ...if not later can't wake up at 5:15am... EEK!

Lousy Monday

The haze was back again, after taking a day off... Sigh! Why can't the Haze just go off to the Pacific Ocean and stay there for good? It's practically making everyday a living hell for everyone. Heat doesn't seem to go away due to the Haze, and the sky doesn't seem to wanna rain at all. Sigh sigh sigh...

Was so busy yesterday that I was making tons of calls to get these done, get that done. Most troublesome was actually trying to settle store problems. All the individual company always do not look after their stores and do the proper documentation for dispersion of items. That's why later on, the companies will have alot of accounting problems for their stores when LRI check are being conducted...

Was chatting with a friend...haha!!! Decided to meet up for the very first time this Saturday. And also, buy her anything as her birthday gift as long as it's not more than $60. And also, we agreed to go to Taiwan next year April. I'll provide the lodging and air ticket, while she foot her own shopping. Gotta start saving more for the trip... I wanna buy alot alot alot of things from this trip hahaah!!! I decided to go there for 7 days. Take a flight to Taiwan on Saturday around 2pm, which means we'll reach taiwan around 5pm, by the time we check in Hotel, should be around 7pm. Just nice for dinner hahaah!!!!

That would be pre-holiday activity. I won't reveal much about the activities hahaa!! Shhhh...It's a secret haahah! :p

Day @ Pasir Ris

was awaken by my phone's vibration, and it's not my HP's alarm. Painfully peeled open my eyes and looked at my phone thru a small opening. Pei yi messaged a "Good morning" to me. How sweet of her haahah!!! Well, just nice I have to wake up as well, cuz I need to prepare and go down to Pasir Ris BLK 421 to help LDQSN to set up Mid-Autumn Festival.

Gave Erisher & Hazel a good morning message each. After which, went to take a bath and freshened up myself. Left my house around 10am. Plenty of time for me to make my way down to the location slowly hahaah!!!

Bus 21 was fast today. I waited at the bus stop for less than 1 min and it arrived. Thus, I arrived at that place around 1030am. hahaah!!! was the first to be there, thus I decided to sit around and wait for the rest of them to arrive.

Basically from 11am to 1:30pm, me & the rest of LDQSN were busily setting up the void deck for the event later. Alot of noise, alot of movements and of cause alot of fun haahah!!!

Was soOOOoo hungry by the time, all of us finished setting up the place. Gosh! Me, Yu Guang & Guan Yu, practically "rushed" over to the food corner to grab whatever food our fingers could lay on haahahah!!! (We sounded like we've been deprived of food for centuries right??!! haha!!)

After which, It was quite boring.... Cuz it's like there weren't much people.... Where's the crowd man???!!! There used to be alot alot alot more people at such events!!! Where have they gone to??? Sigh.... Only goes to show that things have changed.... And we might need to think of better programs for such events in order to bring the crowd back...

Gave a few friends a call, and chatted with them for a while. Before my sister arrived! YESH!!! MY SAVIOUR!!! haaha!!! around 6pm, we left the place... AhZ... walked by our primary school, Loyang Primary. And also the MaMa shop just beside our school. Sooo Much memories... SooOO Sweet... Now, we could only just recollect those fond days, and bitched about how bad we were, or how naughty we wer... hahaah!!!

Well, now, I'm at home, sitting in front of this PC, updating my blog. Later, (sigh!) I'll have to book in again.... Another 5 horrible days lay ahead of me... Hope I can pass these week without much hassle hahaah!!!

Agony & Happiness

OMG!!! The haze today was like so terrible and so thick!!! The ash and burnt smell in the air, almost choked me to death. Woke up around 11am, and the first thing I know when I opened my eyes, was My sister was preparing to go out... lolZ

Actually, I planned to visit an orphanage home today, at Kallang. But cuz of the thick Haze, I chose to cancel it. And I gave a call instead to the orphanage Home's "director" and told her to send my regards to the kids... Sigh, I felt so upset not visiting them today... But because I don't wanna risk myself as well, cuz my chest area ain't very good these few days due to the increasingly dangerous haze, so I decided to stay at home till night time to go to the Mid-Autumn festival...

The mid-autumn festival was quite fun! haha!! played fake" firecrackers" & had paper lanterns hahaha!!! Brought back so so so much childhood memories hahaah!!! Had a go at the guessing game. Some of them were really hard, and some of the items I don't even know it existed.. haaah!! But it was great fun thou!

Gosh! Had a big quarrel with my dad, over a mere charger! ARH!!! After which, he extended the topic to me, always chatting on the phone for hours & hours & hours.... can't you guys just don't restrict me so much?? It's like, I'm already 21, I seriously need to have more socialization in my life!! I need to expand my social circle, go out and mix around with different type of people and learn to be more street wise & street smart. If not, in the future, I'll definitely be way behind other people.

The competition out THERE, is extremely intense. It reaches such an intensity that no one realises it, until you're in one... The intensity can actually kill someone... That's why in order to survive, in order to try to be in the "fore-runner" pack, I have to forever improve myself, else get killed by the intensity...

Thank alot Hazel. Thank you for listening to my grumbles when I was feeling extremely down after a quarrel. Really thank you. Love you girl.

Have to sleep now, else I don't think I'll be able to wake up at 9am tomorrow morning... hahaha!!!

Photo's from Taiwan Trip

Finally, I got to post up some photos I took together with my camp mates while we were on a trip to Taiwan a few months back... Sorry that It came a little late, still it's better later den never right?? hahaha!!!

This was a photo taken in our camp in Taiwan, I guess this was the only one that isn't X-Rated hahaah!! The rest, I guess could only be kept in my PC for personal "enjoyment" haha! :p

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Day 1 at Taipei

We went to this Themepark in Taipei, forgot the name of it already haha! Was quite unluckily, as it was raining the whole morning, but when we reached this place, it turned into a tiny drizzle hahaa!!!


This was taken at the night market a few streets away from our Hotel. I tell you! There were lots of food varieties offered there haahaha! All so mouth-watering lolZ... Too bad we don't all the time to finish them all... Sigh... Next time I guess...

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Day 2 in Taipei

We went to this Small World Amusement Park, the whole park had reduced-size building of all the famous buildings and Monuments. This was taken when we were on the "cho-cho" train in the theme park, going to the other side of the park haaha!!! I looked quite sleepy right? Cuz the first night, we went back to hotel very late, around 1am hahaa!!!


At night, we went to Taipei 101 building, though we were not allowed to go up. But we still took the risk to go up hahaah!!! Because photography wasn't allowed up there... Sigh what a waste! The view at Floor 98 was just simply breath-taking X100 times!!! We had a complete 360 view of the whole Taipei City!!!

After which, we headed down to Shi Ling Market for shopping. It was really, really packed with people, even though it was a thrusday. Went into this shop called "Diamond", and gotta know this very cute shop assistance, called Xiao Xuan. We took photos and exchanged MSN add that very night... CHEERS!


Taken in the middle of the Shi Ling Night Market Main Shopping Lane. Packed with people, and packed with Shops so that we could shop till we drop haha!!!

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Day 3 at Taipei

We went to the most Northern point of Taiwan. It was a small seafood town, well, meant for tourism actually hahah!!! Everywhere we went there're shops selling seafood, and alot of sea creatures which we had never seen before.

We took this on the edge of a cliff! The wind & waves were very strong! Almost blew us away haaha!!!


At night, I went back to Shi Ling again to look for the cute girl, Xiao Xuan. Had her to take me around to shop, eat and have fun haha!! I realised that Singapore Girls & Taiwanese girls have such a big difference... I guess I might talk about that in my next blog....

Dunno why I took this picture... Maybe cuz of all the big posters being placed together.. HAHA!!

Went back to Hotel around 3:30am, after sending Xiao Xuan back to her house, which was about 3 KM from Taipei City.
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Day 4 at Taipei

Woke up around 8am, and went out with Victor to have breakfast. We walked around the shops around our Hotel to see what breakfast we could have hahaah!!! In the end, we went to this eatery that had alot of special dishes we never seen before. hahaah!!! Too bad we didn't bring our camera... WHY!!!

After which, we went back got changed and off we went to Xi men Ting. As it was a Saturday afternoon, it was really really packed with youngsters. And at that place, you'll get to see how the youngesters dress... Definitely 100times better than in Singapore...

Around 7pm, we rushed back to Hotel to fly back to Singapore...

Really didn't wanna wave goodbye to Taipei. But I promise! I'll be back!!!! hahah!!!

Super duper Tiring day....

Oh gosh! Yesterday Friday has gotta be one of the most tiring days I've got ever since I got posted to BMTC HQ...

Early Morning, I walked over to Raven Company to make sure that the equipping Site has been set up properly, with the correct amount of tables, all tables are securely fixed in place. And also, get the total amount of people from ALB, Mr Lim, who will be coming down to the Site to conduct the equipping.

After which, I have to inform the company (Who set up the Equipping Site), to indent meals for the ALB people, and also provide them drinks. Then, I have to go back to LSA office, to photocopy about 500 copies of Personal Kit Issue forms, which I have to give accordingly to all the companies, who are having enlistment today.

Finally, I got to relaxed a bit before the equipping starts...

11:20am - Parents arrived at Sch 2 Cookhouse & started eating...

11:50am - Parents start leaving for Ferry Terminal

12:30pm - My work is just beginning.....

Was practically running everywhere to get things done... Mr. Eric decided to get PT shoes in Sch 2 who were having problems to be exchanged in one shot. So I had to go to all the 5 companies and tell them to fall in al lthe recruits who's NB shoes were having problems and head down to the training shed just behind Taurus COmpany to have then changed... Because there're five waves today, alot of people were worried that Scorpion company's wave might not be able to complete it before break fast timing... But luckily, all the Commanders took extreme proactiveness and did a very fast job... So all of us could go back early.. THANKS GUYS!!!

By the time, everything I was already extremely tired... Only thing on my mind was just to get back home and sleep...

Managed to catch the 8pm Fast craft..hahaah!!! I practically rushed back to bunk, got changed and ran to the ferry terminal haahah!!! The moment I sat down in the Craft, I just fell sleep... All the way till I reached Changi Ferry Terminal hahaah!!! And only to be awaken by the Siren to tell everyone to alight from the craft... lolZ... I guess I was really drop dead tired...

SAme goes on Bus 19 lolZ...fell asleep immediately hahaah!!!

Rushed home around 8:45pm... Reached home not long, I went out again... Passed "Goong" VCD to Ling mei... I tell you the haze is getting worse and worse as the days goes by...It was so hot and humid when I walked to the Bus stop... GOSH!! When will the haze go away??

WHen I came back...i had my dinner & mooncakes hahaah!! I have been working these few days that I totally forgot that Friday was Mid-Autumn festival...And wat's more.. the night view was totally ruined by the heavy Haze...The haze has been getting worse and worse as the days went by...Sigh... Curse those Farmers who burnt and destory all those treess.... ARH!!!

Hazel called me around 11pm loLZ...when I was browsing my magazines and eating my mooncake... we always chatted about anything under the sun over the phone hahaah!!! Talked about Exs...How many flings or scandals....How many sex partners... (Though I don't have...I'm still a virgin.. haha!! yeah! you read correctly hahaah!!!) And other things as well...

Practically seems like she was a little afraid of her dad lolZ...a couple of times, she thought her dad was opening her room door to check on her, whether she has sleep or not... But apparently it was only a false alarm hahaah!!

Chatted with her for 3 hours plus! GOSH!! that has got to be the longest chat I had with her ever since we started chatting since tuesday... thoug it ended when her dad really opened the door to check on her hahaah!!!

I guess it's time for me to sleep as well den haahah!!!

My Weekly Update! ;) 01/10/06 - 05/10/60

Sunday 01 Oct 2006

Woke up around 11:30am, and watched the final few episodes of Goong. Towards the end, things got rather bornig. If it was for the female lead actress, I think I might have just stopped watching it totally haha!!!

Though one ting puzzled me at the end, Cai Jin & Li Xin had never do "that thing" at all, how can Cai Jin get pregnant?? That's one thing that puzzled me... haha!!!

In the afternoon, around 1pm, went over to blk 146, and helped my dad set up the area which wil be used to celebrate Mid-Autumn Festival. Because I ddin't know much people there, so I just quietly prepared whatever I'm being assigned to do, and provide any help I could, after which I went back home around 4pm. Took a bath and helped my mum to clean up the house and prepare dinner.

Yesterday night, Sharon chatted with me over MSN, and commented that me & Joyce are very compatible since poly days. I replied that we're just very close friends. Nothing more, nothing less. Whether things would develop further or not, I dare not give further comments.

I've always wish to have a vegetarian GF... ... Though in the past many of my GFs have tried to be a vegetarian for my sake, but I've always told them not to force themselves if they can't take it.

Because I know very well that being a vegetarian is not a simple task. It's a revolution that required alot of determination, endurance and willpower.

She has appeared... ... I wish she's the one for me... I hoped she's the one for me... Even now, I still hope...

I've always been afraid to talk to her. Always feared that I might anger her. Even on MSN, though I have lots of things to tell her. But because of the fear that she might not be interested at my topics at all, I decided not to...

I don't mind waiting for her...

I don't mind to continue to give in to her...

I don't mind to continue to watch over her... I don't mind...

Just as long as her sight falls on me a little while longer,

her topics revolve around me a little more,

as long as I appear in her mind a little more whenever she feels lonely...

I'm contended...

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Monday 02 Oct 2006

I tell you.... This morning when I woke up I was so shocked to see that the sky was so HAZY!!! It's like yesterday just had a very big forest fire!!!! The smell of burnt & ashiness was so thick in the air, that it could chock a person to death!!!

This morning, the same thing for parade. LSA was the first one to be there, at 0730. Waited 10mins for the rest of the people to arrive. And the parade state took only 5secs. Sigh...what a wate of time... I think from Tomorrow onwards, I won't be joining the Roll Call liaoZ....

Received a msg from Mr. Eric in the wee hours of morning. He asked me to attend a meeting with Mr. Pandian at 10am @ 4th CCO Conference Room.

And after I entered the LSA office not long... I received a call from Mr. Gary. He instructed me what to do for the Meeting, as well as how to handle HD MP, Mr. Ng Ching Seng. Sigh.... How come most of the HD of Depts are all so unlikeable one???

So, at 10am, me and Mr. Pandian went for the meeting... I tell you!!! It was practically an Arrowing Session lorZ.... But luckily I was quite well prepared. Alot of things I just gave this answer: "Sorry Sir, regarding this issue, I'm not in the Position to make any decision. I'll have to report to Mr. Gary first. From there, he'll make approriate decisions...."

The tension in that very Conference Room would be enough to kill anyone in there. The firepowder, the explosions going on in the room... OH MY GOD!!! I don't even know why I was picked to attend that meeting!!!

It was like a breathe of fersh air when I got outta there... Gosh! How I wished it could have ended earlier...

After which, I went for lunch. Cuz today DY LOG, Mr. Eric, Mr Ananh, and Mr. Gary all were not around... that could only mean one thing... CAN RELAX!!! HAHAAH!!!

So I go back to LOG BR and surf the net the whole day haah!!!! So shiok man!!!

Was playing around wholivesnearyou.com and meeting girls who live in my neighbourhood... So fun!!! haaha!!! It's always fun to meet new people and make new friends... Makes me forget my heartache for that brief moment....

"When would my saviour appear???"

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Tuesday 03 Oct 2006

Today, at least could sleep an additional 20mins more, though it never seem to be enough for me... hahah!!

Slept late last night. Around 1am. Guess who I managed to chat online with? Kathy!!! Yesh!!! After she went MIA for sooo sooo soo soo long... Finally, she went online haha!!! Went back to the old me...Everytime I see her must "wa gu" her one haha!!! Well, I guess tat's how our relationship is so close haha!!!

Got a chance to chat with her BF as well... Who's currently as a recce trooper at SMI, PLC. He just posted there... haha!! But don't worry dude... Recce Trooper not really xiong one... I wish you & Ah Kat will be happy & blissed till forever ;)

Got to know a few friends from "Wholivesnearyou.com" And guess what happened? A few girls I just got to know, asked me whether wanna be PT BF/GF or not lolZ!! I was like "AH!!!?? Sure or not??" Like I'm back to Secondary School days sia... Where I always play this kinda things with my friends... then we'll always appeared to be much more "Tian Mi" den those true couples in our gang haha!!! But actually, it was just joking lolZ... phew~~

After which went to sleep....

Today, nothing much lahZ... Mr. Gary is on Day 2 MC. But I doubt he won't be coming tomorrow... So, have to enjoy whatever free time I'm able to have and brace myself for a rough and tiring ride tomorrow... And of cause prepare to be squeezed dry out by Mr. Gary from the minute I start work in the Morning... hahah!!!

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Wednesday 04 Oct 2006

Slowly, I'm starting to adapt to the style of how Mr. Gary & Mr. Eric handle things for Logistics. Though I'll need more time to adapt to their styles...

Early in the Morning, went for first parade. It was a very fast one haahah!!! Just "CCO SEDIYA!!! CCO KELUWA BARASI!"

As usual, first thing in the morning I was summoned into Mr. Gary's office and was asked by him to update him on what happened on the Monday's AOP meeting for Friday's & Saturday's Intake. It didn't take too long. About 15mins I was out of there... Went back to LOG BR to settle some of my documents, started to file and re-arrange my POs and Indents...

Sigh... Didn't realised that I have quite a handful of documents not settled... well, I guess I had better settle them QUICKLY! Before I hear my head rolling from BMTC to North Pole hahah!!!

Decided to try fasting today, so I skipped braekfast & lunch. Wanted to know how it would be like to fast, and also understand how the muslims would feel during Ramadan Period... Yeah! I'm that understanding...I know lolZ =p

Recently, got to know a few girls online. Elina, Bernice, Ruby, Sandy, Hazel, Kerlyn, Catherine etc etc. They're all quite nice girls... Had a wonderful time chatting with them, be it online or over the phone haahah!!! All of them have different personalities, so I took it as a training to brush up my PR skills... hehehee!!!

Yeah!!! I know!!! Some of you out there reading my blog must be thinking

"How come you in NS got so much time to sruf the Internet one? And Army camp got Internet one wor??"

Yesh! There's Internet connection in camp. If not how the heck I get to update my blog haha!! And normally, when I finished my work, I would take some time to surf the Net and also get to know some cute girls hahah!!!

Yeah!! Kill me if you want to =P

It's 1:15am now...Time to chill out in my dreams... CHEERS!

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Thursday 04 Oct 2006

Wednesday night was really, really lonely...Firdaus took one day off, no one accompany me, and talk crap with me about girls, cars & Sex. Sigh... But luckily the girls I met online accompanied me till I wanna sleep. Thanks alot CAT', *muackZ* love you!

Set my alarm to sound off @ 6am, but because the night before I was chatting with this cute girl, CAT', whom I got to know from "wholivesnearyou.com", I went back to sleep after I switched off the alarm... hahaah!!! Freaking me right?

Kept going in & outta sleep till about 715am, den I finally decided to pull my "dying body" out of the bed & went to freshen up myself... Every morning, it seem like such an exhausting task to open my gloomy eyes and try to wake up whole body up, so that it will be ready for a day's of exhauting work...

Went ot Office, and hahah! Mr. Gary wouldn't be in Office till 11am yeah! Thus, I'll be able to do my own things without HIM bugging me with all the meetings, crap and lame jokes... hahaah!!!

Though I received a call from Anthony, telling me that Mr. Gary wished to see me & Desmond at 1:15pm. Sigh... Meeting again. Suddenly, I'm like so Anti-meeting! Mr. Gary has made me so sick of Meetings... haahah!!

(Let me just side-track a bit, and describe how I felt when I was breaking fast...)

Today, I'm on my 2nd day of fasting. Yesterday was quite fun, cuz I've never fast before hahaah!!! And the pleasure, excitement and adrenaline rush you get when you break fast, was really undescribable hahaah!!! Just imagine, after depriving your body from delicious food for one whole day, a plate full of sumptuous food was just right infront of you....And also, you're surrounded by countless other muslims who were breaking Fast with you as well.

As you put the first spoon of food into your mouth... The aroma of the food suddenly attacked your nostrils, suddenly awakening all your smell pores... GOSH!!! The feeling was just AMAZING!!! hahaha!!! ok... I know... I'm being a little too overboard haahah!!

But after today, I won't wanna go on Fast again... The feeling was really reall bad... hahaah!!!

(Back to main story...HAHAH! LAME!!!)

As you could see, being on day 2 Fasting has slowly began to challenge my willpower. The hunger, the desire to feed your stomach & the tempation of food was really starting to sway my willpower more & more as time went by...

All day long, my stomach kept protesting, howling for food to feed its seemingly endless pit of hunger.

With an internal protest going on in my stomach, I went for the Meeting with Mr. Gary. Gosh! That was when the embarassing moment came...

Mr. Gary was telling all of us something important with a very serious tone of voice and look, when suddenly an almost deafening sound came! It was the howling from my Stomach.... AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I felt so embarassed. Everyone in the room were like practically looking at me, like I was some Aliens from Planet Xero... Then, Mr. Gary asked me: "Jonny...Have you taken your lunch??"

"Yeah Sir! I had a bit for lunch...but the lunch wasn't very nice...SO I had little..."

"Okie... Later go and have a tea break..And eat something nice after the meeting..."

"Er....Okie Sir..I will later..."

Aiyoh!! so embarassing!!! I felt that I just wanna find a hole and bury my whole body inside!!! AH!!!

After that embarassing meeting, I went back to Log Br to Slack haahh!! Really, really tiring this few days, could be due to the fact that I've been sleeping very late these few nights... Sigh...I guess over the weekends I shall replenish it back hahah!!!!

Tomorrow's Enlistment day.... Sigh! Gonna work till very late liaoZ...

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快四年了吧。。。

[我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后 是否 住着伤口 ?

雨下过以后是否
能让什么复活?]

快四年了吧。。。

回想起来，寂寞与孤独跟随我应该有那么久了吧。。。哈！我都快忘了寂寞与孤独
究竟是什么感觉了。很自然的，它们逐渐变成我生命的一部分。

快四年了。时间还真是飞快喔。今天不知怎么搞的，昨日的回忆与伤痕好像都约好
一起来拜访我似的。

三年前的那段恋情几乎瓦解了我对爱情的期盼，及希望。分手后的前几个月真的好
难受。似乎没了核心，每天都拖着我的 "尸体" 上下学院。在朋友们的面前，必须
装作若无其事，和他们像平常一起疯疯癫癫，那么他们才不会担心。每当和他们一
起出去玩，在搭电车经过曾经拥有我和她回忆的地方时，眼眶都积满泪水，许多画
面都会一勇而上，刚复原的心好像又被这些画面划了一刀。。。

每当独自一个人的时候，寂寞的感觉几乎把我吞没。多次在深夜，都以泪洗脸入眠。


渐渐地，心中的伤痕逐渐痊愈，自己也慢慢习惯了寂寞和孤独。心灵深处也因为那
段恋情而被我上了锁。

因为曾经付出太多的感情，而上锁。
因为曾经让自己掉如悬崖太深，而上锁。
因为不想再尝到如此的伤痛，而上锁。
因为害怕，而上锁。
因为。。。
因为。。。

曾经问自己: "如果对的人出现了，怎么办?"

可能会解开心锁，
可能会让它擦身而过，
可能只和她成为朋友，
我不知道。。。

如今，她出现了。应该解开心锁吗?

思绪好乱

到底我在你心里是何等地位??? 我对你而言算什么??? 这些问题一直不断的徘徊，一
直反覆的问我。

我一直以来都努力地想把你从我的记忆里删除掉，但越是如此，你在我脑海里就越
是深刻。。。每当夜深人静，或是一个人时，就不由自主地想起你。思念你，想念
你，好像早已经静悄悄的爬进了我的心房，然后不知不觉地成为我的一部分了。

我真的不知道从什么时候开始，我有多喜欢你，有多么的想待在你的身旁。每当知
道你很需要有人在你身旁时，我都很恨我自己，为什么我不能在你的身旁保护你，
支持你。。。

每当我那些不听话的手指不知觉地拿起我的手机，然后显现你的手机号码时，我都
会好想打电话给你。听听你的声音，或者只是听听你的笑声 也好。。。真的！但我
总是因为害怕不知该和你聊些什么，而打消了这念头。哈哈！我好像个小孩喔。。。


我可以因为你，而放弃我的梦想和理想，甚至忘记自我。为了你，我可以如此的疯
狂，如此的愚蠢。但我知道我不能这么做，那样太没理智了，太不象我了。

我喜欢你。
喜欢常傻笑的你。
喜欢那总是少根经的你。
喜欢那无理头的你。
喜欢那喜欢阳光，沙滩，晴天的你。
喜欢简单的你。
喜欢你。。。

喜欢你。。。

。。。

Why???

If Friends whom always reach out to you and show you love, care and concern, try to make you forget whatever stresses you have in your mind, whenever they feel that you're feeling down.

And suddenly one day, they stopped showing you love, care and concern at all ones. They Are the ones you feel that don't understand you at all....

They are actually the ones who understands you the most. Because they always put you before themselves. Their advices sounds piercing to your ears, but are the purest and most honest words from you, cuz they bother about you, they treasure you, they love you.

Start appreciating the people who really cares about you. before you lose them all... ...

even though you've already regarded me as "someone",
I'll still be at the same place.
just in case one day you need a shoulder to lean upon...

Damn Presentation!!

Friday 30 Sept 2006

Dammit man!!! The presentation today at 2pm was completely unnesseccary.... All the hard work put in by Mr Ananh, me, Mr. Pandian, Zhi Qiang & Jeremy. The report served little purpose during the whole 2 1/2 hour long presentation to COL(RET) LEE.

Because Mr. Gary need my part of the report, I rushed back to SCH 2 LOG BR and quickly grabbed my report and pass it to him. After that, sat in his office and practically hear him crapped for another 2 hours. By now, it was already 11am, I was still in my PT kit, smelly, sticky & sweaty.

Was arrowed to help him arrange the report for him which will be presented to COL (RET) LEE. Gosh, by the time i finished everything it was already 1pm. HAHAH! GREAT! Still in PT kit, smelly, sticky, not sweaty but hungry and angry!!! Thanks alot ah Mr. Gary. Thanks to you, everyone has changed to No.4, except me. And at this point of time, you have already slowly made your way over to Cookhouse to enjoy your lunch, while your dear slave, Me!! Have to continue do your job!!! And not even a word thanks from you or even saying you'll give me half day off....

Had to quickly rush back to my bunk to bathe and freshen up and quickly rush down to cookhouse to have my lunch,, Arh!! What a fucked up day!!!

Just when I was about to put the first spoon of food into my mouth, my phone rang....

"Hello? Jonny ahZ... Zhi Qiang Here ahZ..."
"Yesh? What's up??"
"Er... Mr. Gary said that the meeting has been brought forward to 2pm..."

*BOOOOMMM!!!!!* I was totally stunned when he told me this piece of news.

"hello?? You still there...."
"Er...Yeah... Yeah!! Okie! I'll be there shortly..."

After I hung up the phone... I took only 5 mouth of my lunch, and threw the rest away. The cookhouse aunties asked me, why I ate so little. I told them that my asshole Boss wanna see me right away... ARH!! can't even let me have my lunch peacefully...

When I went back to LSA, he showed "concern" by asking me whether I had my lunch.. "YEAH!! YEAH!! I had a very good lunch!", I thought to myself "All thanks to you Fucker!!!"

And, I was rushing here and there to get the documents ready. And all he could say was "Jonny... Hurry up.. We're gonna be late...."

OKOK!!! Can't you see that I'm in need of help you bastard? Oh sorry! I forgot... You're too blinded by your desire to impress that COL(RET) LEE... ARH!!!
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After that useless meeting, i quickly disappeared from there and booked out. Called Joyce and we agreed to meet up at Bedok. I can't tell you how relieved I was to see Joyce. It was like I was finally freed from that horrible place after like a hundred years!!!

We walked around a little bit more, cuz the hawker centre was very packed at the time we went there... So we went to Giant and she did a little shopping hahaa!!! After which we went back to the Hawker center and had our dinner... Ahhh... Being with Joyce was like back in the Poly days haah!! Where me and Joyce were always together. We went practically anywhere together haah! And everyone thought that we were an item... those were the days haha!!! I missed those days.....

After which we slowly walked to the Interchange and went our separate ways home...

Update for the whole week!!! Part II

Tuesday 26 Sept 2006

Yet another working day where I have to drag my body to work. But luckily it was to Life! Activity first.

Today, I thought the Life! Activity would be relaxing one, but Boy was I wrong!!! An easy 5 rounds around the Parade Square, followed by Circuit stations. Well, first of all, the Parade Square is damn freaking BIG! But well, being combat trained, 5 rounds is easy. Finished the 5 rounds with little sweat haha! Was actually thinking of going for more. But i thought again and told myself that I still have a vigorous day ahead of me, so I toned down a little bit, so that I won't wear myself out before the day ends....The Circuit station was also nothing much actually haha!!! Actually, had plenty of time to rest lolZ... Replenish some of those lost energy haha!!!

After which, I dragged myself back to my bunk to bathe and freshen up. Sigh!!! A tiring day of running around and listening to Mr. Gary's nagging is waiting for me at LSA office.

And gosh was I right... the moment I stepped into the office... "JONNY!!! ANAND!!! PANDIAN!!! Later I wanna see the 3 of you!!!" Arh!!! Can't he let me at the very least get settled down in the Office before he start shooting his mouth around... ARH!!!

Then, the 3 of us stepped into his office, and with a blink of our eyes, almost an hour has past by. Just listening to his crapping and repeating messages about what were his requirements for the report that he wants to present this coming friday afternoon.

Gosh!!!! Only half a day's left to check 3 companies. Does He think that we're all superman??? ARH!!! Went to T, U & O coys to check. Well, sad to say, many of these companies have failed badly... Sigh... Especially O coy... their CQ store was in a COMPLETE MESS!!! And there was even an awful smell when I stepped in. ALmost felt like vomitting... EEEK!!!

Oh well, around 5pm, same as yesterday, Me and Mr. Pandian went back to LSA to hear to Mr. Gary's grandfather stories again.. But Surprise! He was rather quick with his words today haah!!! GOOD! That means I have more time to type out my report.

Chatted on the phone with Joyce, while typing my report... haha! Without Joyce talking to me, I might get too stressed up and start punching walls again haha!!

Finally, I placed a "To be continued..." to my report at 9"30pm. Went up, washed up and went to LaLa Land haah!!!
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Wednesday 27 Sept 2006

Early in the Morning and all of us had to listen to his lecture. Fuck man!! That really ruined everyone's day... How nice of him to ruin everyone's day even before work has started.... Such an Asshole!!!

Well, today, I only left 3 companies, M, V & W, to check before my rundown of all the companies is complete... So happy to know that this tiring rundown to coming to an end... haha!!!

M coy was the last we went. Kanan's attitude was so so so fucked up! I kindly asked me to show me where were his items placed, he used a "pissed off" tone of voice, pointed to me a direction and asked me to go there myself and see it.

Hearing this, I kindly asked him again to bring me there, and then he started flaring up... After speaking to him nicely a few more time, I really got pissed off!!! I threw my cap on the table and was about to throw my fist straight at his damn face! But luckily Mr. Pandian was there to stop everything. Gosh! What the heck was Kanan thinking? I just merely asked him to show me the locations of the stores, cuz he knows it best. How could he expectt me to know the locations? Damn... I didn't want to flare up at him, or even swear at him, cuz he's currently having fasting. So, I respected him that during fasting he's in a bad mood, thus I wanna speak nicely to him. But i guessed ego went to his brain too much. Gosh! If Mr. Pandian wasnt there, my fist, my leg might have already flied everywhere on Kanan... And next thing I know, I'll be sent flying to DB haha!!! But I guessed that aint very good right??

Have to work OT again... Sigh! This will be the 3rd time I'm working OT, because of Mr. Gary. And all thanks to Joyce, who chatted with me over the phone throughout the whole night, at least I won't feel so lonely and stressed up...

After I finished my work, I continued to chat with Joyce till about 1:30am I think.. haha! Dunno what we chatted haha! But we just chat... After which, I went up and went into LaLa Land...
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Thursday 28 Sept 2006

I guessed I finished my rundown on the companies at the right time, and do my report on the right day. Cuz today all the School 2 Commanders have to attend a Full Day's Lesson. Thus, AO's PC would be free to use. haha!! So, I just grabbed the PC and used it to type out my report. GOSH! It's been a long long time, ever since I am able to sit infront of the PC and use it for so long...

And the strange thing was, no one disturbed me the whole damn day haha!!! GOOD!!! Meant that I'll be able to fully concentrate on my report. And finally finished it at 4pm. Printed out a draft copy, so that Mr. Gary can browse thru it and make amendments on the spot. And it was at that point of time that I realised that I have skipped Breakfast & Lunch just to complete this report. GOSH!! I've never been so absorbed in typing a report ever since I graduated from Poly. Ahhhh.... Those were the days.... ....

Well, At least Mr. Gary was very impressed with my work. GOOD! If he doesn't appreciate it, I'm gonna send my combat boots flying to his face, and give him 3 pieces of my mind!!! Though, there were still some changes and there. At least, I've more or less complete like 99.95% of it, only need some amendments here and there, and I'm off to enjoy the Cohesion party later in the night....

As I was making the changes using AO's PC, everyone was searching for something, and I realised only then that AO's wallet has gone missing!!! WHAT HECK!!! HOW COULD THAT HAPPENED!!! I was sitting at his place the whole damn day!!! ARH!!! I'm such a dimwit!!!

After a sweeping search thru the whole HQ, we still couldn't find it, thus we concluded that someone must have handpocketed it... But ATO advised AO NEVER to let this made known to SSM, TO, 2IC or CO.... If not, a SUper Duper big shit will follow soon after....

Well, AO has decided to make a poliec report, cuz his 11B was inside the wallet. But I doubt he would wanna make a big shit outta this as well... So the whole of BMTC SCH 2 booked out, left only me, Firdaus and ATO behind... So, the remaining of us went to Scabbard Mess to join in the party. Bar top girls, KTV, Beer & Partying haha!!! Alright!!!

Well, it was quite quiet. As in, everyone's not geling with other people from other companies... All only keeping together with the people they know from their own companies.... Sigh.. That's so sad...

As I was all alone there, I just went around chatting with everyone I know and drank with them. Before I knew it... I was at the DJ table, with R coy's storeman, Alex. And I was helping the Senior commanders to dedicate KTV songs. Well, I guess that was the few times they are nice haha!!!!

Suddenly, the lights dimmed, and music started rocking. The GIRLS ARE RELEASED!! OH YEAH!! BABY!!!!

AHHH!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!! Please kill me!!! The bar top girls awere just Average when the lights brightened up again. And my averge is really really just Average. But at least there was one Indian-Mulism who had nice figure and a good-looking face. Oh my gosh.... I guess the music playing in the background was much better.

And the commanders started smoking out, when the girls wanna pull them in to dance with them... C`mon!!! Have more sportsmanship... When people don't get girls, all of you complained. When they got the girls in, you guys show appreciation by smoking out, and showed unwillingness to have fun. SUCH DISGRACE!!! too bad the girls didn't pull me... I would gladly danced with them... Well, they're all paid for to create fun and enjoyment. So, why not use it to the maximum???

The party ended very very fast. When R coy's OC annonuced that the party has ended, all the commanders dashed out of the Mess like an outbreak was about to happen.... Can't they just stayed back a little longer to clean up the bloody place? Sigh....

SO, V coy's CSM, Mr. Pandian, Me, Alex and some of the Foodfare cleaners cleared the things and cleaned up the place. And of cuz V coy's CSM wasn't one bit happy about all the Sergeants just smoking out like that... And he decided to raise this issue to CO. Oh well... What can I say???

Because I didn't had my breakfast, lunch and dinner... I quickly went to SBL cafe, together with Alex, to grab something to eat... BOY was I hungry!!! Anything now that tasted bad presented to me would taste excellent.. hahah!!!!

After eating, I suggested to sing KTV, cuz during the party, all the senior commanders sang to their fill. So now it's our turn haha!!! And I was surprised that the system have 7,000 songs in it. And they're all very updated hahaha!! GOOD! I can sing to my heart's delight...

I was so embarassed with V coy CSM and the Cafe's Aunties all kept praising me that I have an excellent vocal... haha!!! Though i think otherwise... I just feel that I just suitable for singing at KTV... CUz there's too many better singers out there in Singapore...

Chatted with Joyce on the phone before I went to bed, and told her all about the party and what happened when we were singing just now haha!!!

Went to bed around 12:30am...

Update for the whole week!!! Part I

Thursday 21 Sept 2006

The day passed by so so fast haha!!! But still was awfully busy. I was running here and there, trying to settle things for PES E and also stock-taking for arrival of goods... Gosh! And the weather... It's so hot and humid... It's like even if there's wind, it doesn't help at all. The heat just seem to have rooted themselves around you!!!

Took the 5:30pm fast craft out of BMTC and rushed home immediately haah! It feel so great to be back home haah!!! Switch on the PC, wll realised that it was On and it was obvious that my sister was using it... But why she left it on??? ah! Who cares.... I closed everything that I don't need and started watching Online videos haha!!!

Slept at 3:30am watching those clips... Tired... So, So tired... I'll be meeting Joyce Tmr at Clementi to head down to SIM and NP...
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Friday 22 Sept 2006

The weather is again so so hot! GOSH!!! When is the rainy season gonna come and chase away this irritating heat, that doesn't seem to wanna disperse?

Reached Clementi about 10mins earlier then planned, thus I just stood there and wait for Joyce to arrive. Guess what? She wore a skirt and heels!!! And she looked good haha! I complimented her and said that she should have longed tried wearing that type of dress during Poly days haha!!!

We decided to head to NP for lunch... As we were first-timers going to NP, we asked around for directions. We headed towards this magazine Stand at the Bus stop to ask, and the kind boss told us to go opposite to take the bus. Before going off, I realised that the stand sells flowers as well. They were quite beautiful haha! So I asked Joyce what colour she preferred? After a short moment of pondering over Yellow or Pink roses, I decided to get the pink ones, as I felt that it complimented Joyce better than the Yellow ones haah!!!

Guess what?! That was the very first time, I bought flowers for girls haha! Surprised right? Rightfully, I would have bought flowers for my EXs, but well, Joyce was the first girl I gave flowers to... Funny right?? haha!!! Oh well...

It's so good to be back to Campus life again. The feeling of being a student seem so fresh in my mind. Just walking among the students of NP and eating at the NP Business Canteen, reminded so much about my Poly Days haha!!! I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!! haha!!!

Though Joyce looked good, but as she doesn't wear heels often, so she was complaining about her feet getting corns and getting painful... I can't blame her haha! Heels do hurt if you brought the wrong cutting... And I guess the hot weather played a big part as well to the pain...

After lunch, we went to the Student Service Centre, to enquire information regarding the type of Advance Diplomas or special Courses being offered at NP. Nothing really special or amazing courses that were able to capture our attentions...

So, we left NP and started walking towards SIM because it was like only a 5 mins walk. At the Bus stop in front of NP, Joyce wanted to take a seat, cuz she wanted to paste Tutoring notices at the Bus Stop. haha!!! But because there were some people there, she didn't dared. So, we decided to wait. And our wait wasn't that long, as a lady who was helping "Jean Yip Slimming Centre" to do promotions, approached us, as well as the people at the Bus Stop. Still, she was a little afraid to paste it, so I did it for her... It was so easy haha! Dunno why she was so afraid to do it. haha!!!

The feeling of walking into SIM was totally different. The aura there was definitely different from NP, though it was just 5 mins away. The design of the campus was very "Western". And the girls there.... haha! Pretty, very pretty. It was like Advanced Version of TP. haha!!! It was practically a Fashion Show there. The girls there do their best to dress up, but guys do their best to dress down haha!!! Such a contrast lolZ...

After we took some brochures which introduces the courses avaliable at SIM, we decided to head down to their library. I tell you, their library SUCK BIG TIME!!!! It's so so so so tiny!!!! can't even say that it's a library... Such a big campus, yet the library is so Small.... gosh! What a waste... ...

We walked around and looked for a place to sit down. I guessed I was too tired, I went into a deep slumber almost immediately when I sat down haha! While Joyce went around to do some "explorations". She came back with treasures, like Samples of Past Papers and some books on studying abroad...

Too bad, I have to rush back home to prepare Fo Tang for Qing Zhu at night... If not I wouldn't wanna go back so early haha!!!

Walking to the Bus Stop to take the bus back to MRT station, was definitely the best haha! Cuz just nice the students have just finished their lessons, and were slowing swarming towards the bus stops. So it was the best time to see Pretty girls hahaha!!! And also, it just reminded us of our Poly days as well haha! Ah! Just so wanna go back to SChool!!! lolZ! I wanna ORD NOW!!! *Blurp*

After the Qing Zhu was finished, I quickly changed and rushed down to Tampines Interchange to meet my friend, who will be passing me "Goong" VCD. haha! Been waiting for so long!!! I've been so anticipated to watch"Goong", cuz my friends have been telling me that it was such a good show. Went home immediately and started watching from DISC 3, cuz I;ve already watched the first 2 DISCs on youtube.com. It was really funny... Finally, turned off everything and went to bed at 4:30am... Gosh! I'm so deprived of sleep... And Tomorrow, I'm going to East Coast at 5pm to cycle with Joyce

haha!!! A packed weekend right?? haha!!!
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Saturday 23 Sept 2006

Woke up around 1130am, and immediately I was greeted with my mum, opening my room's door and telling us that she has brought breakfast for us all. That was so sweeeet... haha! LOVE YOU MUM!! *MuackZ*

Quickly went outta bed, washed up and consumed my breakfast. And at the same time watched "Goong" haha!!! The show is so, so funny haha! Especially Cai Jing (The Lead Female), so Ke Lian, yet so funny haha! She's always doing those silly things, but always have the "laughter effect"

watched the show till 3:30pm. Then I went to bathe and prepare to go out... Miscalculated that she would arrived at East Coast on Time, and I waited at the food court for over an Hour...Cuz she was coming down from Raffles Place, cuz she was having her Arts lessons there. And it's not that easy to wait for a bus at CBD area...Sigh... Silly me lolZ! But luckily, I ordered a plate of ice cream waffer to pass the time...lolZ...it was quite delicious lolZ! How smart :p

When she arrived, we went to see which shop offered the cheapest bike rates. And we settled for one that charged $4 for 2 hours haha!! CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP!!!!

Cycling at night is so cool... The weather is cooling, the scenery is also cool & the wind is also cool...

It has been such a long time that I felt so "free" & "relaxed"

We cycled, stopped, cycled, stopped along the way. It was so relaxing... Dunno why. Being with Joyce always seem to ease away my worries haha! Ever since Poly days. haha!! Oh well... too bad we're only fated to be friends... But, come to think again, we can't be anything more than friends, Cuz I'm a vegetarian & she's not... It'll be very hard for both of us in future... So, I guess that we just leave things as it is now...Dun wanna think of anymore....

Around 9pm, we returned our bikes and headed down to Mac to have our dinner. Well, her dinner haha! She said that she wanna have her dinner after cycling... Well, she was obviously very hungry haha! She ordered a Chicken Foldover meal Plus a Cupcorn...haha! And after that she still said that she was hungry... OMG!!!!! Is she human??? hahah! oppZ!

As it was getting late (It was already 1030pm, by then), We slowly made our way to the Bus stop... Guess what? I was so tired by the time I boarded the bus, that in less then five mins after I sat down, I knocked out hahah!!!! I'm so Horrible!!! Almost missed my stop at Tampines. haha!

When I reached home, I watched "Goong" again haha! Till about 3am, Before my beloved sister passed me her phone and asked me to talk to her friend, Chervon. Cuz she was having some relationship problems, and my sister hoped that I could enlighten her friend better than me. So, I listened to Chervon's Story. And guessed what? The guy she liked was an Aquarian!!! No wonder, the way she described the guy she liked was so so so liked an Aquarian haha! So, I gave her some 5cent worth of advices as well as enlightened her on the traits of an Aqaurian, hoping that it would help her...

Tomorrow, we're meeting 1:30pm at Toa Payoh to attend a Digicam seminar, I wonder what type of seminar would it be...Hmmm... Anyway... Time to turn in At 4:30am Again!!
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Sunday 24 Sept 2006

Woke up at 1030am, and again, my mum greeted us with breakfast! haha! I felt so blessed! haah!!!

Quickly went to prepare myself to meet Joyce at Toa Payoh... I don't go to Toa Payoh much one... Actually today was my second time there! haha! Surprised right? Toa Payoh is such a buzzing place, and I've only been there twice haah!

Anyway, she worn the same skirt she worn on Friday haha!!! Did she washed it at all?? haha!@ oppz... Sorry for being bad... =P

She told me that the Seminar was held at SPH building, which was in Braddell. Never been to SPH at all, we asked for directions, and the Station Staff told us to head down to Braddell instead and it would be a short 5 mins walk from the MRT Station, rather than we take a bus from Toa payoh. haha! Such a honest answer from that Gentleman lolZ....

We were BLUFFED!!! It was indeed a Digicam Seminar, but it was talk on the upcoming "Canon Photo Marathon 2006" ARH!!! BOth of us were so wanting to leave!!! We felt cheated... But anyway, we sat thru the WHOLE TALK!!! (Can't believed we sat thru that talk totally) We got to know some basic things to take note during photo taking, such as lighting, brightness, contrast, shadows, linings, etc etc. (Talking about basics...YAKK!)

Joyce was obviously getting bored & Hungry haha! Cuz she wasn't expecting a talk to promote a Photo-taking competition..haha!! Anyway, after that talk, we quickly disappeared from there haha! And headed straight for Toa Payoh Central for Lunch haha!! After that, cuz I had to prepare to book in later at night, we went back soon, after having our lunch....

I guess that kinda round my busy weekend haha!!! I guess next week kinda have to tone down abit... So that I can accupurate the lost sleep.... CHEERRS!
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Monday 25 Sept 2006

First thing in the morning that greeted me, Mr. Pandian, Mr Eric and Mr Anan was this huge, huge, huge bomb. *KABOOMMMM!!!!*

Mr Gary wanted all the stores in both sch 1 & 2 to be checked, similar to LRI style. Together with that, whatever things in the company that are spoilt, and needed to be replaced. All these have to done by Friday.

Is he NUTS??? 11 companies checked and verified by friday??!!! He must be totally out of his mind i tell you...

Thus, immediately after this small meeting, I gave Leopard company a call and rushed down to conduct a check. Store check, Condition check, documents check. This check, that check. KaoZ!

By the time I & Mr. Pandian finished Leopard, it was already lunch time. How nice... Half a working day gone just doing a spot-check on one company. Agreed with Mr. Pandian to go to Raven Company and do the check after lunch, around 1:30pm.

Thus, I went for lunch. After lunch, I went back to LOG BR to read some newspaper and relaxed my mind & body for a while before I embraced myself in yet another tiring check.

Raven Coy was quite a breeze haha! Because things were arranged yet nicely and orderly, so whatever items I need to check on, it was quickly tallied. Though, still there were some common mistakes here and there haha!!! But, their store is by far one of the best that I know of.. Good job dudes!!!

By the time we finished Raven company, it was already 4:15pm. So we decided to slack in their store till about 4:45pm before we head back to LSA for Final Roll call. Had combat biscuits. Gosh! I thought i'll never eat those again. Still remembered those outfield days, where these awful-tasting bsicuits were considered to be "Treasures" whenever our combat ration runs low. It was only then, that we realised one true phrase:

"When you're hungry, ANYTHING, I mean ANYTHING, taste heavenly." haha!!!

When we reached back to LSA, there wasn't much people left. Only Desmond and 1 more Messing By was there. So I asked Desmond where's the others. He told me that they've already went off and Final Roll Call was already over.

I was like OVER??!! WHAT!!?? But I thought roll call for non-muslim was supposed to be at 1700 Hours? Oh well... Since everyone has left, I might as well just go on to do my own things and update some of my documents and call it a day...

Went to eat dinner alone, then went up to LOG BR and used the I-Net. I tell you, it really stink to update 4 days of blog entries in one shot. It's really tiring, especially after a tiring day of work. Logged onto MSN and chatted with my friends for a while, and did some catching up. Still glad that I have friends on MSN to chat with...

Between me and Her, the gap is becoming bigger & bigger. My sister told me last weekend, that she found her to be quite materialistic and not a very good girl. In simpler terms, she just don't like her much... I guessed I was blinded by Love, Lust and my own obessession over her.

Still, no one could understand, not even Her. How it felt to lose a friend. But thankfully there was Joyce to spend the weekend with me, if not I'll be having wildful thoughts over the weekends, and could have driven myself C.R.A.Z.Y!!!

Busy Day!!!

The day passed by so so fast haha!!! But still was awfully busy. I was running here and there, trying to settle things for PES E and also stock-taking for arrival of goods... Gosh! And the weather... It's so hot and humid... It's like even if there's wind, it doesn't help at all. The heat just seem to have rooted themselves around you!!!

Took the 5:30pm fast craft out of BMTC and rushed home immediately haah! It feel so great to be back home haah!!! Switch on the PC, wll realised that it was On and it was obvious that my sister was using it... But why she left it on??? ah! Who cares.... I closed everything that I don't need and started watching Online videos haha!!!

Slept at 3:30am watching those clips... Tired... So, So tired... I'll be meeting Joyce Tmr at Clementi to head down to SIM and NP...

The answer

很感谢您那么的认真的回答我。 至少我知道原来我是一个那么失败的人。谢谢您。
但为何一定要把话说得那么难堪吗? 有这必要吗? 有必要说: "反正你看了，读了，
也没什么反应， 没伤心，又曾样? 你说有更多要说，但却那已经足够了。我猜始终
你没有了解到我真正需要的是真正的批评，能把我辩得有多一文不值，就把我辩得
多一文不值。因为我觉得只有你会坦白，但你没有。

我很失望，但同时也感激您。。。
你答了。到我回应了

You were a nice girl, even now you still are. We had laughters, joy and fun. Weekends spent with you seem to make me forget the tough trainings I had in camp. Each and every week I looked forward to each weekend outing with you.

You told me about you wanna look more pretty, you wanna have a change. I helped you, but I made a fatal mistake. I didn't find out what you wanna be. All along I was forcing you into how I wanna you to look like. I knew that all along, you didn't voice out, thus I went along.

When you chose to stop, you didn't told me. I didn't know at all. Just simple that I wasn't You.
I wished once upon a time that with the assistance of those clothes you would be more confident of yourself. Cuz, I was trying to inject more confident in you thru clothing first, den slowly remove the need for nice clothings, once you have the confidence. But i guess you gave up and went with your own thinking, which I am happy for you, through your true words.

I never forced you to dress beautifully, whenever we go out. I merely encouraged you to do so. For I know all girls wish to be more pretty at one point of time.

I'm into Fashion, because I wanna pursue my dream of opening a Fashion Boutique. I'm sorry if that made you think that I'm a person who goes for looks and is too shallow. I'm into Techonolgy, creativity and futuristic stuffs, because I'm a person who is fascinated by these things. And also I have the dream to open a Cyber Cafe.

I have a big dream where, I wish that everyone would be beautiful and happy.

I have my goals, dreams and targets in Life. And I'm glad you have yours. How I wan my room to look like, is a sketch that I've been planning . I wan the place I sleep in to be as comfortable as it can be. A place where I can chill out after a tiring day of work. Or a secret hideout from all the troubles in the world. Where I can "feel safe & easy" mentally.

Same as you, I'm working hard for what I want my life to be, as well as how I want my parents to enjoy their later years. I'm not restricting what you do or what you desire in Life. I'm not your God nor Father.

Sooner than I know, I realised that you're beginning to drift away. I never once doubted that you've gotten out of the shadow of your last relationship. Because you never once dared to face that shadow within you, because you were afraid of something, that I'm not sure. Only you know that answer...

I'm a guy that really dotes on the girl I love. Anything she wants, I'll get it for her. I'll 迁就 her in almost anyway possible, even to the extend of really spoiling her badly. I treated them like how a girl would wanna be treated, a queen, a princess, the darling.

I'm poor, Yes I know. I'm currently jobless, in a sense. I'm currently without a career. I can't support you. Yes! That i know. I'm unable to be beside you when you need a shoulder to lean on. Because I'm in Army. All the more I feared, because I'm afraid that I won't be able to give you happiness.

I don't like my friends to feel unhappy, thus I always see myself as a "clown", an entertainer, a laughing-stock, at least to make my friends forget their woes for a brief moment.

How you feel inside? I will never ever know. Because I'm not you. Who would know how you are feeling inside, if you never once wanna share?

If my topics are boring you. Just tell me, and I'll shut up and be quiet all the way. It's that simple.

Ever since I came to know the value of money, I've never been calculative with friends. Cuz money to me is this: "We earn money, is to spend money. When we finished spending, we just earn again." I've never been calculative with money, unless it's to do with important things. Still, I dunno from which occassion you felt this way.

I can afford those things in branded shops, but I just don't wanna buy them, because I know I can use the same amount of money to buy clothes which are cheaper and of same quality, or even better. I'm trying out all these clothes, is because I needed to gather information on the type of textile used for each type of cloth and how it feels against the skin. How it will appear and how to match it with other clothes.

People who understands you really well, are those people you openly share your true feelings with, but those who don't understand you are those people whom you don't wish to share your feelings with.

Sometimes, it questions me why is it so hard for you to share your woes and troubles with your friends? Especially those that cares alot about you? Is it because you're afraid to open up, in fear of getting hurt? Or is it because of other things? Only you know the answer.

I am a person who really cares for my friends alot, and somehow or rather have this urge to take good care of my friends. Thus, alot of my friends look upon me like a "Big Brother", though I never once thought of it that way.
Simply, because friends mean alot to me, whether you're close or not close. I am a person who is willing to help anyone, even if you're nasty to me. For I see no use of hating someone or something, as it's a total waste of energy. People may say that I'm just being too kind and good or simply called "烂好人", which one of my dearest female friends, said this to me a long, long, time ago, as a reminder for me.

And even till today, this 3 simple words still struck a cord in me, strongly.

If all the aeroplanes that I've put you made you so disgusted about me, then I guess I've no point in explaining myself further, for in your heart I'm already a "bad person".

Just remember these words: "What you see & hear, may not be what you think the situation is. Because there's always 3 sides to a coin."

Off Day!!!

haha! Surprised right? Posting in my blog on a weekday.... Cuz I'm on off haha!!! yesh! I'm gonna have a long long long weekend to enjoy!!! YEAHH!!!!

Well, those recruits who were enlisted in Thursday and Friday are also gonna enjoy a long long weekend too!! That's great for them... After being trapped on that isolated island for two full weeks!

The day passed by very quickly, which I have no idea how come... Maybe it's because I know that I'll be booking out today...

GOsh! I hate staying at the LSA/Messing Office. Only one OA PC, and about 7 people are fighting over it to do their work and paper work... ANd that Mr Gary, is always having all sort of "gatherings", "meetings" & other shit craps with us, and practically the content were quite useless.

Maybe he deemed it as useful, but I reckoned that the time wasted listening to him, would have been used to complete some of my paperworks....

Anyway, Don't wanna spoil my mood for the rest of the week. I have a great weekend ahead haah!! CHEERS!

Last night, all of a sudden, my mood dropped rock bottom. I was in my bunk, all alone. Suddenly, I started thinking back about why the attitudes of my colleagues, all of a sudden changed 180 degree. The change came so fast, so hard, so harsh, that actually I'm bearing with it every single day, every minute, every hour, every second. Firdaus commented how could I still appear so happy, after all these happened. I could only replied him that I chose to pass each day with happiness, but within me, my heart is being torn apart, my feelings were being stomped upon, my kindness is being used & re-used as a weapon just to get things done.

Still, I treated as if nothing happened at all. I decided to remain null, numb, quiet, silent...

As if like it was automated, I picked up my HP and started asking some of my best buddies how they think of me as a person, whether I'm good or bad. They started questioning why? I replied with a "Nothing, just asking. Wanna know myself better...."

At that point of time, my mind was on the verge of collapse. The mental stress built up within was about to explode, tears were at the edge of my eyes, overflowing anytime. But luckily, the sound SMSes coming in, somehow or rather prevented those erupting tears from exploding. I was saved from yet another emotional collapse. I wondered to myself how can I face another day of such coldness from my colleagues. I questioned myself how unhumanly can they get with their treatments towards their fellow colleagues and partners. They were such disgusting animals, which previously I've never came to realise. Such horrible monsters were hidden underneath those smiles and laughters... Hidden fangs and claws, sticking out from their mouths and fingers, as if ever-ready to strike and pound on any un-wary preys...

I'm totally, utterly, deeply, disappointed... ... ...
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19/09/2006 Tuesday

Dunno what's happening to me...Been feeling very restless, and tired. What's wrong with me?? I seem to be always "sleep not enough"...

People around the SCH 2 HQ are treating me differently as compared to the past. Previously, people whom I always chatted, laughed, joked and played with, sudddenly seem to ahve turned their back towards me and start ignoring me, and act as if I'm invisible...

What the heck have I done to deserve all these??? Ever since I got posted to HQ, this issue has been noticed by me, and my ex-DYLOG. And he has also discussed this issue with me personally on two occassions, though I told him that it's impossible to please everyone. If I do that, then people would realised that I'm very fake. I might as well, just be who I am, what I am. If others can't accept it or comply to it. Then, there's nothing much I can do. The most I could do, would be to perhaps tone down on my hype level, and be more quiet...

Anyway, if that's the case...Then so be it...

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20/09/2006 Wednesday

As usual, today was quite another busy day (Well, Not that busy at all, Most of the time was wasted away on waiting...).

At 10am, I had to take a Fast craft out and meet this guy who does custom-made No.3 uniforms for PES E recruits. Both of us agreed to meet @ 10:25am, but that Asshole came 15mins late, and thus I missed the 10:30am Fastcraft and had to wait patiently like an idiot at the SFT for the 11:30am Fastcraft. But nevertheless, I was able to receive at least 1 set of the No.3 uniform for the recruit to wear.

Now, talking about Orion's Storeman, Indra. GOSH! That guy is really getting on my nerves!!! I really wonder to myself, why am I able to keep my composure whenever I talk to him. Everytime I talk to him, I had to repeat myself at least 3 times the same message, before he can get the thing across... GOSH! And me, being a person who hates repeating myself over and over again. Can't believe that I didn't even blew my top, whenever I talk to him...

But looking at it from another angle, this might be a good time to further train myself to control my temper and anger.

Just began to realise that handling Humans is really an art that everyone needs to master. Especially through emails. Just came to realise that the emails I've been sending out these few days, have been getting longer and longer. And i begin to have "Hua Zhong Hua". Gosh! Can't believe that I'm starting to have a split personality in Army... Totally hate that things are turning out this way... Why can't things be done in a simpler way???

Anyway, Friday I'll be on OFF.. haha! My FIRST OFFICIAL OFF ever since I've been posted to BMTC. During my days in SCH 2 LOG BR, I didn't dared to take any off-days, cause I was just beginning to pick up the trade and trick...

But now that I'm more or less settled down, it's time I start clearing my leaves and OFFs lolZ... But FIRST! I must finish all my paperwork tomorrow. Before I take my leave lolz.

!Gathering!

刚到家不久。。。嗨！为什么周末都过得那么快?难道就不能让时间慢点吗? 每次到
了要会兵营的时候都会有种莫名的依依不舍。。。

好久没见到她了。。。大概有接近一年了吧。。。她还是老样子，永远都会迟到得
很离谱。。。哈哈！！幸亏我早就习惯了。。。之后，我们到 Aijisen 吃拉面，也
聊了聊往日情怀。这时我才发现原来大家都那么怀念学生时期。。。也都抱著一种
"不想长大" 的思想。。。

哈哈！今天和 Joyce 看了一部电影: Barnyard 。是一部关于农村里的动物。蛮好
笑的。。。好久没看戏了。。。大概8个月了吧。。。(那也太久了吧！！！哈哈！！！
)

看完戏之后，我们就到处逛逛。我呢，就买了一个我找了好久，好久，好久的包包。
它其实是个愈加包包，但我拿它来放其它物品 。呵呵！！！ =P

有句话:"夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏。" 快乐的时光飞眼就过了。。。但是我好开心
喔！能和 good friends 聚一聚，也是件幸福的事也！

...

刚到家不久。之前跟andy 和 惠一起到乌节路走走逛逛。和他们会在远东广场。好多人哦！哈哈！当然人潮多=美女也多！哈哈！

还记得那是我和惠不是共同买了两件一模一样的 T-Shirt 吗? 今天我打算穿！哈哈！
"我不知道，你不要问我。。。" 哈哈！真有趣。。。

好不好意思哦。。。穿着这件衣服好引人注目。大家的目光好像不知觉地都会落在我的衣服上。

惠买了两件衬衫。不是很好看啦，但只要她喜欢，就行了。然后，我们到 Sunflower 吃晚餐。惠叫马来炒面 (Mee Goreng) ， Andy 叫了叻沙。 我呢，就叫了看似 maggi mee 的味曾汤面。

然后呢，我和andy 就去 Paragon ，而惠就去另外一个地方去会她的朋友。她的表情沉重，重心似乎早就飞到另外一个地方了。。。

直觉告诉我，是个很重要的人。因为她回来后，就一直神经系西，跟之前完全不一样。但我并没问她。反而，我宁愿让她这样疯疯颠颠，至少她能在疯颠里暂时有个避风港。

明天，12pm 就要meet Joyce 在Tampines small mac 。好久没见面了。

her gift...

一个星期又那么过去了。。。天天都在忙。忙,盲,忙。到底是忙?还是盲? 不管那么多了。只要能阻止我呼吸乱想就行了。思念她的心情一天比一天渐渐地在增加。但也同时，沉重，寂寞与沉默也在不知不觉中慢慢的，慢慢的，在我的心中逐渐蔓延开来。

最近心情会忽然感到沉重。好想把自己一个人关起来，自己一个人静一静，完全不受
到外界的干扰。不知道为什么会这样。可能是心灵空虚太久的关系吧。。。可能该
是时候去找个人谈谈恋爱了。让心不会那么的孤单，寂寞。

不知道"她"会不会阅读我的blog 。。。如果你有阅读的话，这翻话是对你说的:
"我对你的思念从没减少过，对你的眷恋从没停止过，我对你一切的感情仍然搁浅着。。。
我会一直默默地在离你不远的地方守护着你，思念你，喜欢你，保护你。

我不知道，我到底在你心里是什么。如果什么都不是的话，没关系。就算日后你找
到了理想情人，我还是会那么的喜欢你。就让我喜欢你的这分心意，停留在那一刻。
"

Last weekend, I just bought a dress which I wanna give it to her during her birthday chalet. Actually, I was pondering whether I wanna get the dress I bought or the other dress which was what I've been looking for, for a long long time. Still in the end, I bought the first dress. Partially was because the lady boss spent alot of saliva promoting that dress.

Thus, it would be really bad if I chose the second dress over it. Cuz she spend so much energy trying to sell that dress haha! Anyway, I already got the picture in my mind and how she would look like in the end.

Guess what the lady boss commented when I was cashing out?

"You're buying this dress for your GF is it?"
"Er...."
"Don't be shy lahZ (She giggled). You're really meticulous."
(I could only smile and blush at her comments)
"Really...Nowadays very few guys would spend time to shop and plan a such a detailed gift for their GFs liaoZ...)
"haha!! Don't say liao lahZ...I'm really blushing liaoZ haha!!!"

After that, she gave me a 20% discount haha! Cuz she really admired my Xi Xin haha!! YEAH! 20% discount wor! haha!!

Then, I quickly rushed back home to get ready to book in...

Now, I'm only lack of high heels, necklace, ear ring, rings, belt, and other accessories... Still have $120 budget to go...den this dress will be complete...

不知不觉中，又到了周末。。。好快喔！不知道要去哪晃才好。。。

周四和周五都有新兵进来。忙透了！从早忙到晚。好累啊！！！但是。。。不用紧，
至少我有事情做，不会去胡思乱想。

今天好好笑喔，食阁的员工都称赞我的声音好好听，都不约而同的想介绍女生给我
认识。哈哈！！！害我都害臊起来了。。。

本来叻今天放工后，是要和ANDY 和他的朋友一起到beach road 的一间店购买小惠
生日party 的东西。 但是叻，我不能去，因为当我到家，冲个凉再出门，已经为耻
以晚。真可惜。。。都怪我现在在当兵，不然就有很多时间去准备小惠的礼物了。


哈哈！明天薪水就进来了哦！太好了！！！还有！明天晚上要去jasmine 她心爱狗
狗的生日 party 。。。

Haven't felt so free ever since I took up the responsibility as LOG SPEC of Sch 2. Handed over my CQ store to Sch 1 and had a sense of relief. Like a small boulder was taken off my shoulder. Though, not all are taken off...

New challenges awaits me at my new office at CCO-PTSSU, under Mr Gary, that bloody two-headed snake guy...

Yesterday, he came to TFT to look for Andy, regarding whether was he able to take some of the refreshment and let him use for some functions for Commander BMTC. And after which, he asked me when was I able to go over to his side and commence work. I purposely told him that I could go over anytime, tomorrow (Wednesday) would be possible. And guess what he said?

He told me to go on off!!! I was almost gonna faint when I heard this... I couldn't believed that phrase came out from his foul mouth...

Anyway, recently, Yue Hui's Friend, Andy, contacted me yesterday and asked me for ideas on how to decorate Hui's Chalet... Actually, the decoration of the Chalet was long imprinted in my mind, and since he asked me, I typed it out and sent it to him... It's gonna be a big birthday gift for her....

On my part, I'm still searching for that perfect dress for Hui to wear for her Chalet. It'll be a dress that will bring out her elegance, beauty & figure. It'll be a cross between a dress, a gown and a cross between princess and modernisation look. Difficult, but i want her 21st birthday to be the most memorable one. Last year's one, I knew she didn't enjoyed it very well...

so GANBATE!!!!

封闭了

为了隐藏以前痛苦回忆
我选择放弃放心去爱人的权利
因为我不相信自己 不相信一句话
叫做真心真意 我选择绝情绝义

终于，我决定放弃一切。让我的心再度封闭起来。
因为不想再让自己受到伤害。从头到尾都我在一厢情愿。痴痴地，默默地为她付出，
却一直没得到她的芳心。
好累，好傻喔！真的是很傻， 又很累。。。
不要再问我有没有心意的对象了，因为我一直都没有。

等待
我随时随地在等待做你感情上的依赖我没有任何的疑问
这是爱猜你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败从天堂掉落到深渊多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友我在你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend
no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友

So Lonely

Finally, Manpower Branch has shifted to BMTC CCO... Now, Sch 2 HQ seem like a ghost town. So little people! In the Morning, for first parade, the number of people falling in can be counted by our 2 hands... Totally pathetic!

I think after LOG BR move, SCH 2 HQ would be even more quiet.

Anyway, last Sunday, Me, Hui & Andy went wandering around town area. First we went to NAM aka National Arts Museum. There, they displayed numerous outstanding works from artists in Asian region, including Singapore. I was totally captivated by one work titled: "Oasis". It was abstract art. The use of distortion and daring colours merge together perfectly! If it was not for the time constrain, I could have stood there and just admire that piece of work! haha!!

After which, we kept walking towards City Hall and went into a Fire station Museum. It was so cool! I didn't realised that the Fire department in Singapore had such a long & interesting history. It startewd from nothing in 1915, to a well-structured and organised organisation today.

From there, we continued to China Town. But it started to pour... What a Spoiler! Still we continued on..haha!!! No matter what's the weather, it'll not dampen our adventuring spirit! haha!!! Sound like a true blue explorer....

Along the way, we took countless photos, striking silly poses and funny faces. It's been a while I've had such fun. Then, we went to this place called "Red Dot". The WHOLE building was red in colour and inside, it was a heaven for creative youngsters to display their work, sell their art and get a foothold in Singapore's niche market. A perfect heaven for people like me haha!!!

Then things turned a little nasty for while after our heavy lunch, Hui was feeling nauseous. And visited the toilet a few times. She said she will never go into a MRT Toilet ever again. HAHA! As if I'll believe her lolZ...

Anyway, as she wasn't feeling well, I advised her to make her way home. So that her body can get some rest... How stubborn of her! I think this was the very first time I shouted at her in the public. Sigh! She knew that she's not feeling well, but still she didn't want to dampen everyone's spirit.... Silly girl!!! We can organise an outing anytime. But health is of outmost importance...

At night, before I booked in, I decided to check her blog. It was then that I realised that her feet had sustained numerous injuries and she was actually having difficulties walking. ARH!!! Some times, she really make me wanna vomit blood... And what's more, she totally ignored my advice in telling her to bandage her wounds to prevent infection... Sigh!!! oh well... What can I do...

Busy Busy Week!

Finally, the much anticipated JANUS migration happened this week! The whole of BMTC will be getting new computers, Intel Doran 2.8GHz, 512 DDR2 RAM, 80GB HDD. Totally Amazing! haha!

ANd of cuz, as youngsters, we installed much games into the new computers. Though it wasn't allowed. But who cares! haha!!!

Work for me, and the rest of LOG BR has increased without us knowing it. Practically for me, I have been working till 7pm almost everyday, just to make sure paperwork is finished. SO that the very next day, new things can come in... SO tired... Haven been sleeping very well for the past week... Been going in and out of slumber several times in the night. On Wednesday, I didn't sleep at wink till 3am. I was practically looking at the ceiling fan, thinking of nothing, just couldn't sleep...

Stress..............

Sigh... LOGO please come back asap. We're being pushed around, bullied and arrowed stuffs that ain't within our job scope!!! ARH!!! it's so irritating. Almost everyone are pushing things to LOG BR, just because there ain't any Officers around... We're like soldiers without weapons, totally defenceless....

Have two chalets on the weekend. One is my primary school mate on Saturday, and the other one is my Poly mate on Sunday. Both at Pasir Ris DOwntown. Asked hui whether she wanna come along on Saturday, cuz just nice she knock off from work, and if she doesn't have any place to go, or not in the rush for home, she could join in.

She replied "Why don't ask ya sis go?". I was thinking, why ask my sister? She has her own group of friends, her own life. Can't possibly ask her to join every of my fren's outing. Then, my sis would ask me "Got ask Hui?"

I replied "She's busy this week with exams and projects. Don't wanna distub her. Anyway, if you not free to go also okie one lahZ. Cuz it's my frenz's BBQ, doesn't really concern you at all...."

It was my fault, for saying such blunt words, though in context, it's true that it doesn't concern her... But i asked her to come along, it was due to other reasons....

I like her. I like her alot. Maybe it's an obessession, maybe it's a Fetish. Though she not very pretty, but there's something in her that attracted me towards her. I wish I would be with her everyday, fetch her from work in my own car, bring her around. But, that's all in my dreams...

Thinking too much liaoZ... have to return to reality. One of the reaons I said that was because in the past, whenever I have fren's outing and I invite her, she seem unwilling to go. But, i guess it was more of my fault. Because she has the freedom to choose... I was indirectly forcing her to go... How selfish of me...

Let's just hope that these 2 chalets would be fine haha!!!